I'm Such A Girl!!!

Just in case the breasts didn't get the point across,

or the mentrating...

This whole 'sighing over texts 4rm a guy' sure has made me remember that i'm a girl!

This is so ridiculous!

I mean, i thought i had gotten ahold of myself....

Thought, is so the keyword there...lol.

I had already figured out what the situation was...and what it wouldn't be.

But, noooo here i am thinking maybe, just maybe, i had him all wrong all along.

ugh!

I'm such a girl!

Let me hear about this exact same situation from the lips of a friend...

...and i'd be sighing for a whole other reason;

You are so stupid...so sad.

lol

So i can recognize that this is idiotic, yet that part of me can't help but hope.

Yes, hope.

Ridculous, i know.

What's worse is I'm trying to convince myself it's better that there's now interest on his part...

...now what i want to happen doesnt seem so wrong.

Yet, where's my value in all this?

ugh!

I'm such a girl!

I should not laugh at his feeble attempts to be funny!

I should not send the ' =) s' or the lil winks!

What is my problem!?

Why am i flirting?

ugh!

Somehow, i do manage to realize that this has to be some sort of plan.

Sadly, i don't kinda care.

lol

I think i'm purposely playing stupid.

I mean, i used to do this well...

...as long as i felt i was gaining something, too.

So i want to go along with this, becuz then i don't feel like i chased him down and seduced him!

But, then again i dont like anyone having the upper-hand...

...and i know that deep-down inside i wish that later he'd realize that i was actually pretty cool and want to seek something serious with me...

Yes, such a girl thing, but nevertheless i think it.

So maybe this is a bad idea...

...maybe im not just playing stupid...