or the mentrating...
This whole 'sighing over texts 4rm a guy' sure has made me remember that i'm a girl!
This is so ridiculous!
I mean, i thought i had gotten ahold of myself....
Thought, is so the keyword there...lol.
I had already figured out what the situation was...and what it wouldn't be.
But, noooo here i am thinking maybe, just maybe, i had him all wrong all along.
I'm such a girl!
Let me hear about this exact same situation from the lips of a friend...
...and i'd be sighing for a whole other reason;
You are so stupid...so sad.
So i can recognize that this is idiotic, yet that part of me can't help but hope.
Ridculous, i know.
What's worse is I'm trying to convince myself it's better that there's now interest on his part...
...now what i want to happen doesnt seem so wrong.
Yet, where's my value in all this?
I'm such a girl!
I should not laugh at his feeble attempts to be funny!
I should not send the ' =) s' or the lil winks!
What is my problem!?
Why am i flirting?
Somehow, i do manage to realize that this has to be some sort of plan.
Sadly, i don't kinda care.
I think i'm purposely playing stupid.
I mean, i used to do this well...
...as long as i felt i was gaining something, too.
So i want to go along with this, becuz then i don't feel like i chased him down and seduced him!
But, then again i dont like anyone having the upper-hand...
...and i know that deep-down inside i wish that later he'd realize that i was actually pretty cool and want to seek something serious with me...
Yes, such a girl thing, but nevertheless i think it.
So maybe this is a bad idea...
...maybe im not just playing stupid...